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“You deserve to be happy,” he whispered against her mouth. “I can’t...I can’t make you happy. I can’t be who you want me to be.”
What did that even mean? “I love you just as you are.” She didn’t want him to be anyone else.
But he shook his head. “Baby, you don’t even know who I really am.”
There had always been secrets in his eyes. A darkness that shadowed him. He’d been in the military for the past three years...and every time he’d come home, there had been a new hardness to him. A sharpening edge of danger.
“I can’t tell you where I’m going, and I don’t know when I’ll be back. I won’t ask you to wait for me.” His forehead leaned against hers. “I can’t.”
Tears stung her eyes. She’d been dreaming of a new life—so many plans and dreams for the two of them. She wanted a new life with Grant, but...
“You have your scholarship,” he continued, his voice sounding ragged, as emotion finally seemed to break through for him. “Take it. Take the life that’s waiting for you.”
Her hands lifted and curled around his shoulders. She knew a good-bye when she heard one. After all, she’d heard plenty of them in her life.
He kissed her again. There was desire and need in that kiss. She rose onto her toes, trying to get even closer to him. Scarlett wanted to be as close to him as she could get—
“I won’t forget you,” Grant told her.
He’d pulled away.
He always did.
She wrapped her arms around her stomach and blinked away the tears that wanted to fall.
“If you...if you ever need me...” His voice was gruff, shaking. Strange. He never sounded uncertain, but he did in that moment. “I’ll be there for you, Scarlett.”
She almost called him a liar. Because he was leaving. There was no way he could be there for her when he’d be gone.
But it hurt too much to talk anymore. She’d finally realized a painful truth.
I love him...but he doesn’t love me.
Story of her life.
Scarlett stiffened her spine. She wouldn’t reach out to him again. “Goodbye,” she whispered, because there was no more to say. He hadn’t invited her out here, to their spot by the lake, because he wanted to make plans about their future. He’d brought her out here to break up with her.
To leave her behind.
She turned away so he wouldn’t see her crying. She took one step. Another.
Scarlett wouldn’t let herself glance back. Grant McGuire was done with her. And she...she would be fine without him.
If you ever need me...
She straightened her shoulders and kept walking.
I need you now.
But needing did no good.
* * *
GRANT’S HANDS CLENCHED into fists as he watched Scarlett Stone walk away. I love you. She’d never told him that before, but he’d known...he’d known how she felt. With Scarlett, there were never any games. No pretending. Her emotions shone in her deep, warm chocolate eyes.
So he’d known exactly how much he was hurting her as he’d told her that he was leaving.
Grant took a step forward, almost called out to her.
But...
He couldn’t tell her where he was going. What he was doing. The next mission was black ops. The mission he’d been fighting to take. He loved the adrenaline. He loved the rush. He loved protecting his country and doing his damn best to make the world a better place.
He also...
“I love you, Scarlett,” he whispered. But she didn’t hear him.
Scarlett was already gone.
Funny...he hadn’t realized how cold the summer night felt. Not until that moment.
Copyright © 2015 by Cindy Roussos
ISBN-13: 9781460375914
Countermeasures
Copyright © 2015 by Janie Crouch
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